The Queen Has Lost Her Crown

How often is yes the last word on everything?

“Yes” energizes or enervates that moment between the desire and the spasm. The heart responding gaily, when invited, beating obedient to controlling hands. Ah my Queen, sitting on a burnished bed in a tiny room saying yes and losing all power for evermore. Off with your head now.

A terrible beauty is born in the remembered mating of minds. It is a portrait with big words that hurt so much.

Rememory is not just black American women’s writing – a voice that needs to be heard – deeply beloveds, but it is something to be lived through. And if you are lucky – to escape from. Escaping history that nightmare from which, bless Joyce that crazy Irish man who was right, we are all trying to awake.

The son and the father. Oh Hamlet, whose father drove him mad, drove Ophelia mad. To be or not to be and when you ask that of the sweet gods, they say goodnight and drift by gently as beautiful ladies, a sect that you are denied access to. Ah, no Goddess be you, my love, my own sweet witch, just a woman – bleeding red in the eyes. And there they are, all the sweet, sweet, beautiful Gods, mere shouts in the street. An artist, a creator of one’s own pathos – oh look, there’s the portrait of the proud purple beauty carrying her blue hyacinths in a month of funk.

My fair lady, do you remember that fear you had of the father who would not step out into the rain even if it were your birthday in August? And I told you the son was just the same always worrying of weather that would be inclement? But you denied it. And later you denied me happiness because you and the father and the son and the bards singing would not see any beauty in our cuming (so many seconds of saying yes, do you know?) together. But that jug-jug (which you told me happens between dirty friends with unclean ears who have shared every half-formed thought) had a warming, calming beauty – not forced – a spontaneous expression that repeatedly said yes.

And now embracing lies, quiet and meaningless, in that speckled quagmire that was the mind we have let things fall apart. How can the world hold? But there is not even anarchy here, not a drop of the drip-drop water; hollow, empty, the horror, the horror, the Queen has lost her crown.

Advertisements

About Bhumika's Boudoir

I love to laugh, and end up being a part of high drama and stormy emotion even when I don't pursue it. Being creative, and communicating with people get me going. I enjoy all the good things in life especially those that are slightly risque, and apologise little, if ever, for all that I do. Literature is a passion and so is music.
This entry was posted in Blue Funk. Bookmark the permalink.

2 Responses to The Queen Has Lost Her Crown

  1. Aman says:

    Very nice but I am now wondering: is so much reference necessary? Well, in a way the queen losing her crown is what the subjects would talk about. Here the subjects being Elliot, Carrol, Shakespeare, and you. But try now to restrict others' words and express it all in your own. The same effect, only in your own words, your unsupported voice. Go solo baby. With the sharpness you are now gaining in your writing, I think you should undo the sages around your work. Off with their heads 🙂 I push you, sorry. But isn't that my job?

    Like

  2. It is. It is. Sigh. I'm really tired, Aman. Let's take this offline. And thank you.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s